He gives us stories /// advent of a dream

He gives the childless woman a family,
making her a happy mother.
— Psalm 113:9

crying silent tears

It was the morning of 31st August, and I was lying in bed mulling over the events of my life with tears trickling out the corners of my eyes. I couldn’t believe that I had just turned 30 and I was still single with no prospects of marriage and no children.

Growing up, like most girls, I had dreamed of getting married, having children and ‘living happily ever after!’' I’d had boyfriends over the years but here I was a 30-year-old childless spinster—left on the shelf. Both my older sisters were married with children and all my friends were either married or getting married…so what was wrong with me

 I was angry with God (because of course it was His fault)! I’d even been to Bible College and was now working as a full-time Church Worker!! And to make matters worse, while at Bible College, I believed God had told me that I was going to marry one of the guys who worked there. However, after many years of believing this, I discovered that the guy didn’t get the same message! 

That was a really difficult time for me—trying to fulfil my duties as a Church Worker but inside my faith was wavering and my heart was breaking. I didn’t want to admit to anyone that I was struggling with being single so I put on a face and pretended that I was fine but with every engagement, wedding, birth, family event or social event where it was nearly all couples, my heart ached and I cried silent tears. 

hiding my sadness

The years rolled on and I became an expert at hiding my sadness. Please don’t get me wrong—I wasn’t sad all the time. I had wonderful friends and family and, between them, my two sisters had provided me with four nephews and two nieces, who I loved to bits, plus several of my friends had children with whom I was able to build relationships and have fun with. My relationship with God improved, but due to health reasons I had to give up my job as Church Worker.

Lots of love to give

By the time I was 43-years-old, I had completed a degree in Occupational Therapy, had a permanent job and had my own home…but still no husband or children and still carrying sadness in my heart. It was at this stage that I asked God,

What now? I have time, a home and lots of love to give. 

I contemplated fostering or adoption; however, the option which seemed best suited to me and my circumstances was shared care—which is providing respite for families who have a child with special needs. After a pretty gruelling year-long assessment by Social Work and me praying that God would choose the child that He wanted me to care for, I was introduced to Rob and his family. It wasn’t long before I had fallen in love with this adorable, big blue-eyed little five-year-old who couldn’t talk and had just learned to walk. 

After a period of time getting to know each other, Rob came to stay with me every second weekend—and continued to do so for the next 14 years! I vividly remember the first time Rob’s mum called me his second mum! The tears flowed down my cheeks as I realised that, in spite of being single, and in spite of never having given birth, I was a mum and I couldn’t love this amazing wee boy any more if I had given birth to him!

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the rare jewel of Christian Contentment

 Psalm 113 says,

He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother.

Between Rob, my 16 great nieces and nephews (whom I adore) and the many other children I am blessed to have in my life, I am indeed ‘a happy mother’!!!

God has given me a contentment with my life that I never thought possible and I can now genuinely rejoice with those getting married or having children. 

  • Would I still like to be married?
    Of course! 

  • Would I still like to have children?
    Hmm…….I think that ship has sailed!!


Thank you for following along with our Advent series, He Gives Us Stories.

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