Depending on god
Despite growing up in a church-going family, what I was learning about God and His Word never seemed to affect my life or change the way I thought. I was quite content to live my life the way I wanted. I was obsessed with popularity, relationships, academia, parties and social status.
Things changed when I was 15 and diagnosed with depression. I was struggling to cope with the wild life that I idolised. I was self-harming, angry and hated myself. This led me to turn my back on God in a big way; I didn’t want anything to do with him.
Fast forward several years and I somehow found myself in a church service really listening to what the pastor was saying. He spoke a message about dependence on a loving God who would never abandon me. He told me that this God had died for me, that I didn’t have to be perfect or chase after meaningless things, because God was right there. Somehow, something changed in me and I suddenly found myself breaking down in tears, desperate to know this wonderful God and have a relationship with Him. I have never turned away again, despite struggling with my mental health as an adult; I have always experienced God’s grace and goodness to me in those times. He has carried me through the difficult times, He has given me a church family that supports and loves me, and He has given me new passions and a joy for life that I never experienced before.
how did you come to be part of Refuge?
I got involved in Refuge right in its earliest days when we were just a small group of people meeting in a house to pray and dream about the church that God was asking us to be. I have loved watching the church grow over the years and seeing new people drawn into the community.
What are some of the things you think are really great about Refuge?
Refuge is a fun place to be. It’s a simple as that. The people are family. I love the fact that you can just be who you are at Refuge; you can be as messy as you want to be, as vulnerable as you need to be and as crazy as you probably are! I also love the fact that Refuge is a ‘sending’ church with a big focus on supporting missions both local and overseas.
How are you involved in life at Refuge?
Currently I am on the leadership team of Refuge and oversee the children’s ministry programme. I also serve on the prayer ministry team; one of my favourite things is getting to pray with someone and see how prayer brings healing and wholeness to their lives. Last year I completed an internship year with Refuge and I am currently pursuing church planting (starting new churches) and outreach opportunities within Glasgow.
what about Refuge encourages your faith?
I am encouraged in my faith everyday by the amazing women and men of God that are around me. The prayer ministry at Refuge has also been an amazing support to me, this along with individuals walking with me through difficult points has made me a more whole and joyful person in God.
HOW DO YOU FEEL YOU CAN USE YOUR GIFTS AT REFUGE TO SERVE GOD?
God is taking me to new places and into new seasons of life and I love it. As I have grown in my gifts, I feel that God is asking me to step out and pioneer new things. Refuge is a church that champions mission and church planting, something that I have a passion for. This is where I feel I can best use my gifting.
If you could tell anyone Just one thing about Refuge?
Refuge isn’t just a place that you can shelter from the storm as it says on our website. It is a family that will weather that storm with you; supporting you, praying for you and providing for you.