Being a Christian may not always bring comfort as people sometimes think. It can fill me with guilt when I feel that I am not able to rely on God to help me in my most difficult of times. I am a very private person and do not tend to share what I do in my life outwith the family.
For many reasons for most of 2017/2018, if I was asked how I was, I answered,
Unhappy & sad.
It was mentally & physically exhausting. I could not lift my mood, so what did I do? I withdrew from my commitments—it was easier for me to hide and avoid conversations I did not want to engage in. I became indifferent to what was happening around me. My family were anxious. Church was a constant, even though it often felt as if I was simply "going through the motions" by attending. I realise that by being at church, being encouraged by what I was hearing or, as often was the case, being uplifted with the words of a particular song, I was slowly healing.
For me there is an old hymn which embraces how I felt whilst reminding me that I take comfort from it:
how did you come to be part of Refuge?
My daughter, Kirsty, and I were looking for a church where we would both feel it was right for each of us. She had seen the Refuge sign on the railings and was curious because of the name.
How do you feel you can use your gifts at Refuge to serve God?
I have come to realise that the gift of being ‘an encourager’ is very much appreciated.
If you could tell anyone Just one thing about Refuge?
We are all needed in a church.
Everyone is valued, and so the Pastor, the Elders, the sound team, the musicians, the web administrator, the children's team, the hospitality folks, the finance team, the prayer team are all very much who make Refuge the family that it is. Equally necessary is the listener, the encourager, the person who prays for and with you.