iamRefuge: Lindsay

heart-stricken with life-giving truth

For by grace you have been saved through faith;
and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God,
not as a result of works, that no one should boast.
— Ephesians 2:8–9

I grew up in a Christian home and was taught about Jesus from a very young age. I prayed to receive God's offer of forgiveness through Jesus' death on the cross when I was 5 years old. However, throughout my childhood and early teens I struggled greatly with doubt that God had really saved me...always fearing that I didn't believe enough, hadn't changed enough or confused as to why I still sinned. 

One evening as a young teen, I remember reading my Bible and asking with tears for God to save me for what must have been the hundredth time. As I continued reading I came upon this precious verse ...

Cease striving and know that I am God.

—Psalm 46:10

My heart was all of a sudden struck with the life-giving truth that none of my striving could impact the fact that God had indeed saved me. He had done it, and not me. I spent so much time worried that I didn't have enough faith, all the while it was never about how much faith I could muster, but the One in whom that faith was placed. I learned that faith in God wasn't a striving but a resting, a simple trusting in Him as a child trusts in their parent. Jesus had done it all...He lived the perfect life that I couldn't and then He died the death I deserved, conquering it through His resurrection. There was nothing I could add to that. I simply needed to rest in it. 

This has been the most freeing realisation of my life and by God's grace I continue to live joyfully in it.  Now, the striving in my life comes from a place of peace, freedom and security. The effort is no longer spent in trying to earn God's favour but is found in the delight of striving to know and love this amazing God who has fully proven He is worthy of all my trust.

how did you come to be part of Refuge?

Through good friends who planted the church. 

What are some of the things you think are really great about Refuge?

I love the people, the teaching, and the worship. It really feels like my family away from home and truly helps me to focus my life on what matters in life.

How are you involved in life at Refuge?

I serve in the kids ministry teaching in the crèche. I also facilitate a women's Bible read-through group once a week, where we discuss the Bible passages we have read and pray for one another.  

what about Refuge encourages your faith?

I am encouraged and challenged by the Biblical preaching and teaching and also my read-through group is greatly encouraging to me and helps me as we discuss the Bible together. I love the friendships I have here and often thank God for them!

How do you feel you can use your gifts at Refuge to serve God?

I love working with the kids and seeing them learn about God. I also just love being a friend to people when they need one, whether that is offering a listening ear, delivering a meal, or hosting people in my messy house!

If you could tell anyone Just one thing about Refuge?

You are most definitely welcome!!! We will imperfectly endeavour to show you the love of Christ and to point you to Him!

I am refuge | series 2

During the run-up to Easter, we are introducing a number of folk from our church family in this IamRefuge series. Ensure that you don’t miss them by liking our Facebook page!

View the original series from last year